Victim

I am a victim

When did it start?

I cannot remember

The change in my heart

I know I am difficult

I know I am sad

The black shroud of fear

Is driving me mad

I want to trust you

I want to let go

I want to be able

To love myself more

I long to be free

Of emotional pain

To live life with abandon-

Once again

To be able to live

I can’t wait for the time

I am able to forgive

Myself for my crimes

Forgive myself for all that I am

And surrender to life as best as I can